So today was my middle child’s birthday. He’s been talking about it since he first started speaking English. When he saw Dailah’s and then Trysten’s, he decided he was a fan. Bless his heart, he had to wait almost a year before he got his shot. Well his wait ended today and we did our best not to disappoint.

I know you want pictures but let me just say this…this boy, is my heart. He is joy, he is love, he is beauty. After he opened one of his presents tonight (a basketball) he asked if he could share it. That’s him. He’s really that sweet. I find myself just staring at him, smitten. Totally head over heels for my boy.

Most Ethiopians are not born in a hospital, Tariku is no exception. We have no idea when his actual birthday is but today was chosen as a day to represent it. I don’t really grieve that we don’t know his actual day, that is of little consequence. I did grieve a few things today, the mom and dad who weren’t here. Who didn’t get to see his eyes light up when we sang him Happy Birthday. Or feel the death grip of a hug he planted on me numerous times today.

Tariku felt a bit of loss today, I think. We have a picture of a special person to Tariku in our living room. I was walking downstairs and I saw him lingering by it. I went and told him that person was saying “Happy Birthday” to him too and praying for his happiness.

I say it all the time, but I really have no idea how we got so blessed with Tariku. It really doesn’t make sense seeings I am who I am (and Zach, well he deserves something this sweet, but me?). I look at Tariku, the boy who has grown 5 inches, who will play babies with his sister because he loves her so much. Who holds her hand when she walks up and down stairs in case the dogs come barreling down and a stray tail hits her. Tariku, the brother who lets his eldest brother pick what game to play. Tariku, the one who cries when he loses in a game. My ambidextrous ball dribbler. The boy who can sing his ABCs and sings it loudly! The little guy who randomly used subtraction the other day (subtraction!) He’s the guy who pics out the purple Skittles and gives them to me (because he knows they are my favorite).

And even though I grieve for him and some of the losses he has experienced, I find comfort in what hasn’t been lost. I know the little guy who is here, all those things I described, is who he has always been. In Ethiopia, in America…

And he is the most beautiful 4-year-old in the world!

First, Dailah, getting ready to sing, “Happy Birthday” as we walked down the stairs to get Tariku.

Then it was time to measure. First measurement was April 22nd of last year. 5 inches in the last 11 months. Can you imagine?

Tariku opted for no birthday pancakes because he had heard he was getting surprised with donuts.

The donuts were brought by an Auntie who loves him very much. And these boys. My nephews.

I asked Tariku if he wanted me to make a cake, cupcake or brownies. He wanted cupcakes but I forced him to pick a color different than his brother’s. So when Trysten came home, he offered to read Tariku a book while I made the cupcakes. That was the best background music I’ve had while baking!

The boys tried to wait for me to get done so they could lick the bowl but the 70 degree weather was calling their names so after the book, she was my only “helper”.

After making cupcakes and a short stint of being locked out of the house, we were off to my in-law’s for some pizza and fun.

Tonight when he got home Tariku got to talk to Degenet; one of the little boys who was in the orphanage with him the whole time. He was also brought home the same week Tariku was. I’ve kept in contact with Degenet’s parents. Degenet started singing to Tariku on the phone and Tariku started crying. He was so excited to hear from his dear friend. After they talked a bit (with Tariku exclaiming, “I’m in America!”) Tariku ended the conversation with, “I love you, Degenet.” It’s been almost a year since they’ve seen or talked but when you’re a friend of Tariku, you’re a friend for life.

As promised, pictures and more!

Friday night was family fun night at Trysten’s school. It was crowded and fun night. So that was fun. 🙂 My parents did meet us there, which the kids loved. Here, see?

I had to wake up early (5:15am) on Saturday morning. I slept horrible that night on top of it, so I was less than thrilled Saturday morning. Thankfully, my husband is rather amazing and when he woke up on Saturday he let me go back to bed. It was sooo nice. Then we went on a hike because the weather was more than perfect.

First, Tariku opened his first birthday present from my Aunt Kathy.

Papa Frank joined us for the hike, Doozie preferred his hand.

Trysten on the low rope course.

We returned and realized the kids had left their babies in time out (what?!?!?)

Today we were able to play outside again with it being so nice out. Iowa in March, you just never know.

Zach running drills with the boys.

Trysten explained this drawing at camp as Tariku, dad and mom. Guess who is who. (I kind of enjoy that I’m twice the size of them)

And this, of course is Dailah, Trysten and Tariku.

While the boys played basketball, I read my book and Dailah played with her baby. Check out her pocket, it contains my phone, which is kind of irresistable.

Loads of fun. Tomorrow is Tariku’s birthday. He’s like a bride the night before her wedding. All frantic, excited and near tears. Ridiculously endearing.

Since I’ve been gone I feel like I should tell you what I’ve been up to…Facebook style.

Tesi is…catching up on sleep and reading our latest book club book. The Girls, which is a pretty great read.

Be back tomorrow with pictures and witty commentary.

In this house, in this family, there is no shortage of hilarity on a daily basis. Since I’m the kind of lady who enjoys a good laugh, I appreciate tremendously my family’s ability to make me come thisclose to putting a rush on a potty break. In fact when I first started this blog, I wrote about it here. If you want to see what hotflawedmama pre-seasoned blogger sounded like, check it out.

Anyway, tonight was no exception. My favorite hubby has been “requesting” our famous made-from-scratch pizza for awhile now so I thought pleasing him was in order today. I’m sure all you parents can relate to the many times a day your kids ask, “What are we eating?” Or some variation. I typically vacillate between finding it cute to ridiculously irritating. Most of the time I say something sarcastic (didn’t you know sarcasm is the BEST way to parent?). Zach falls into the let’s-drip-all-comments-with-sarcasm column as well, so he took over tonight.

Trysten: Mommy, what are we having for dinner?

Zach: crazy sauce

Trysten: Dad, what are we having?

Zach: Silly sauce

Trysten: Daaaaaaddddd, what are we really having?

Zach: Nuts sauce

My husband told my son that we were having nutsauce (granted, he tried to make it two words but failed miserably). I looked at him, he made the most hilarious face, and I immediately fell into my side-splitting laughter.

Nutsauce. I think any joke that has that as a punch line will forever be funny to me.

Nutsauce aside, the pizza tasted extra special tonight. Perhaps because it wasn’t nutsauce?

It’s been raining, non stop. This means that our storage room is flooded, ankle deep. Then our laundry room overflowed. Then our drains backed up and there was water in our kitchen and EVERYWHERE. It’s just been an interesting couple of days. I’m done with rain. Seriously done, for now. And did you know dishwashers are so nice? I strongly dislike doing laundry by hand.

In other news I had my doctor’s appointment today for my spleen. For those just tuning in, I’ve had an enlarged spleen for the better part of 3 years. It was found when Dailah was in utero and I’ve been “under watch” since then. I’m ready for it all to be over, quite frankly. Doctors have no idea why it’s big and bumpy and weird.

So I was on my way to get my blood drawn and ultrasound of the spleen and do you know what came on the radio? Lisa Loeb’s “Stay”. I was feeling all nostalgic and nervous and I cried.

I seriously cried. I’m ridiculous.

Won’t know much about the spleen for the next few days but when I looked at it on the screen it looked good to me. Realizing I have no idea what that means other than what googling “spleen images” shows me. Mine looks like most of those so that’s got to be a good sign, right?

Anyway, forever the optimist I’m gonna say it’s all good and I can officially be done with my very nice hematologist in a few short days.

That’s about all I know. Lots of rain, enlarged spleens and Lisa Loeb. A day in the life.

Not much going on in this little life of mine. It’s raining and raining and raining today and though I found it to be perfect napping weather, the kids have yet to actually doze. I think this is more frustrating for Zach than it is for me but that could be due to the fact that I still managed to catch a few zzzzzz’s.

So with nothing much to say, I’ll leave you with these pictures. Dailah seems to be growing at such a rapid pace. Her language is so developed it scares me and these pictures seem to show her little girl side. I’m not quite sure what happened to my baby but I’m really enjoying this little girl she left behind.

That’s horse poo.

It’s been a good few months since we were able to trek up to the horse barn and visit some of our favorite four-legged friends. Our friends have since grown facial hair (have you seen a horses coat in winter? Crazy weird) and were a bit ansty in the saddle, to say the least.

Temps were 55 degrees today so we decided a horse ride was in order. After 35 minutes of tacking, combing, slapping horse butts, etc it was time to mount. 5 minutes later it was time to unmount. The kids got restless and I was scared poopless with Trysten on my saddle sliding to and fro.

Confession, I’m a nervous rider. Always have been. Then put the horses nervousness and Trysten yelling and dogs barking and you have one mom with heartburn.

Perhaps in another month we’ll all welcome the chance to be with each other again. Until then, I was able to snap a few good pics.

Dailah and hotflawedmama’s cowboy boots. Hers have been worn almost every day. Mine, not for 3ish years.

Tombstone pizzas cost $4 so you go with 5 for $4 Totinoes instead.

Love grocery shopping.

Anyway, a lot of people have asked for my bread recipe lately so I’ll post it now. I use it for everything! Rebekah, have you and Patrick tried the honey bread recipe from Marcus’ cook book yet? If not, do that. Everyone in my family loves that as well and it’s super easy. It’s also perfect for toast or a little extra somethin’ on sandwiches. So here it is. It’s the one out of the Joy of Cooking cookbook (which is a must have for anyone who loves cooking or baking, in my opinion).

Combine in a large bowl, and let stand until the yeast is dissolved, about 5 minutes:
1/4 cup warm (105-115 degrees) water
1 package (2 1/4 tsp) active dry yeast

Add, and mix well:
1 large egg, beaten
1/4 cup (1/2 stick) butter, melted
2 1/2 cups lukewarm (85 degrees) water
1 1/2 tsp salt
1/4 to 1/3 sugar, honey, or maple syrup (I use 1/4 cup sugar pretty much every time)

Add:
4 C whole wheat flour
4 C all-purpose flour (I sometimes switch it up and use more wheat and/or more white, it’s a fun little experiment)

Knead, proof and shape. (Knead for about 10 minutes or until it’s no longer sticking to everything then roll it into a ball). Allow the dough to rise in a large oiled bowl until doubled (oil a bowl, put the dough in and then turn dough over so both sides are oily). Let first rise happen for about 1 hour.

Then punch down (this is my kids’ favorite part!) and knead for a few more minutes. Split into two. Grease 2 9×5 inch loaf pans and put dough in those. Let rise until doubled (about 45 min).

Bake until the crust is golden brown and the bottom sounds hollow when tapped. This is about 45 minutes but I usually just check the temperature (it should be at least 195 degrees).

Then take it out and let cool sideways on cooling racks.

It is a lot easier than it sounds, I promise!

I can do 2 loaves at a time (so basically this recipe) in my mixer. I just usually do it twice so that I can freeze the extra 3 loaves and take them out as I go along. Oh, and if you are using the mixer, the kneading time is considerably shorter. I just go until it’s not sticking to the sides of the mixer.

Give it a try and let me know how it goes. It’s REALLY yummy. It took the kids a few times to get used to it after having store bought bread because it’s a tinch thicker but now they don’t like regular store bought.

And want to know another reason?

I just read that IF YOU MAKE YOUR OWN BREAD YOU SAVE ON AVERAGE $725/YEAR!!! Money in the bank, baby.

Walk, don’t run, to the nearest yeast aisle near you and bake baby bake!

This is it. My extremely generous mother-in-law bought this for me a few weeks ago. I had been borrowing hers for a few weeks to make my bread. See, I used to be an elitist bread maker; only kneading bread by hand. Then I got a taste of the Kitchen Aid kool aid and haven’t turned back since.

So I was borrowing Terre’s every week to turn out 4 loaves of bread. Then one day she surprised me with one of my own. And it happens to be in my favorite color (purple/boysenberry). Isn’t it beautiful?

So I’ve made more loaves of bread than I can count and the birthday cupcakes. Zach has whipped out some terrific chocolate cookies as well. It’s terrific. I’m actually not sure how I ever lived without it.

Thank you, Terre! Have I mentioned how much I love Zach’s family?

I call it my biscuit.

Because I love biscuits.

And I love it.

I’m human. So after my post last night. I’ll post this.

What in the world was The Bachelor about tonight? Sometimes I hate living in America. And I hate myself for watching that all the way through. But I was watching it with my sister so I’ll count it as bonding time.

But seriously, ridiculous.

Look tomorrow for a picture of my new baby. This baby doesn’t need me for anything but I still coo it and pet it and feed it and it loves me and I love it.

Here’s a hint. It’s beautiful and purple and it bakes bread with me.

My soul mate.